I have so many things that I want to achieve in my lifetime, but right now my main focus is weight loss. Well, I won’t say weight loss, there are things that are so much more important to me. I love enjoying life, I enjoy the people I surround myself with, I do not want weight loss to consume my every thought and move, but I do have goals I want to hit.
I also have a list of 50 things I want to do before I am 25. Maybe that is something I will share on this blog, but for now it’s just for me.
On that list, there are some weight loss related goals. I would like to be able to get to a point where I could job across the 34th street bridge in Ocean City, NJ. I would like to jog across the Ben Franklin bridge. I would like to finish losing 100 pounds. I want to do so many things. But I think the more realistic things to achieve will be the smaller goals that can ultimately get me to these larger goals in the long run.
During my journey, I would like to:
- stick to Couch to 5k
- work out 3 days a week
- drink much more water
- lose weight every week
- hit my second goal (I’m 35 pounds away!)
- start weight training again, and more often
I keep finding myself with these excuses to not keep going, or to eat something unhealthy, or to skip a workout, when in reality there is absolutely one hundred percent no excuse for it. I want to reach a goal. I want to shop in my favorite stores again, like the Ralph lauren and Gap outlets, I see myself as a certain way, and I’m realizing it’s probably not how the rest of the world sees me. I look at myself in the mirror and I really feel good about the person who is looking back at me now. I didn’t feel that way about myself. But more recently, I have realized that I may see myself as someone who looks good and I may feel good, but other people may not look at me and see the same thing.
A year ago, I saw pictures of myself from my vacation to Florida and that is what made me kick start this whole process. I was depressed for days because of it. I was disgusted. A similar thing happened last night, where I saw a video of myself backstage at the play I was in and I got so sad all over again. I didn’t know I looked like that because I don’t FEEL like that. I feel so much better than I haven in years. But instead of being depressed about it for days, or weeks, I got in the treadmill and decided to stick with all these goals that I made for myself. That is a huge change in myself that wouldn’t have happened a year ago. I am using it as motivation.
This is that picture from then, and this is how I look now. I can’t be sad about those things anymore. All I can do is acknowledge it happened and never let it happen again. Maybe even focus less on the scale and more on what I am capable of doing. I am doing to do this. I’m never going back.
I am achieving my goals.